Thoughts on life thus far

I'm ready to do something more with my life, something that makes me feel more fulfilled. Something that will make my life feel more complete. I doubt at the moment I could find an instant completeness. Because all my life I have surrounded my self by romantic ideas. I have learned that while I do not need someone to be happy, there is someone who will fill an emptiness in my life. I know that I can't fathom life without him. Yes not only do I have career dreams, and dreams of a home in which I belong, but romantic ones.

I'll tell you something, I don't much care for the huge dating scene in which you date around, and have to compete against others for someones interest or affection. I don't want to feel rejected by the man who most captures my heart and sees the true me. The man who thinks I'm the most beautiful woman. Sigh...

I am considering leaving Oregon. I may have said this on a blog before, but I feel as if I want to experience something new. I know there is something out there for me, and I feel as if this place calls me. There is truly only one way to know. As soon as I can I may embark there, go out into the world and except me calling.

I think I should like to become a chef. Maybe specifically baking or pastry. So I have to take care of a few things, look into finical aid, check out the different schools, and apply to one when I can.
I think it will be exciting!

But of course what makes it harder is I will have to find a job to save up to go off else where and have a place to live(maybe I could stay somewhere for bit if I know anyone in the area). I'd have to get a job there then while in school so i could afford to live month by month.

So I have at least that plan, and I'll I have to do is go through with each step and succeed in seeing to my future. I can't keep just wishing can I?

PS ~ If you notice how proper some of my English sounded, it's because I have read too much Historical Romance books set in England LOL!